Monday, June 16, 2014

The journey is, indeed, the destination


surprise, surprise
a Saturday night treat
so much excitement in the secret

into the truck
a picnic dinner packed
away we go

give us a clue
just a little hint 
please?!

three miles til our destination
traffic stops
we wait and wonder and inch along

so many cars, so little movement
an hour and forty minutes later
we're next to enter

what?!
with no explanation, the event's not happening 
um...now what...ice cream!

the hot air balloon festival was a bust
the evening was a smashing success
laughing, singing, smiling, loving

the journey is
indeed 
the destination.

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Five


Happy birthday, Lucky!  It's hard to believe my boy is 5 years old today.  On one hand it feels like just yesterday that I was bringing his fluffy puppy self home, and on the other hand it feels like his wise old soul has been with me forever.  Lucky is so much more than a dog.  He is special beyond words, and I am blessed to spend my days with him.

Thank you, Mr. Lucka Pup for being my boy, for choosing my family, for being an example to live by.  

To celebrate Lucky and his 5 trips around the sun with me,
Life Lessons Learned from Lucky:
  • Love unconditionally
  • Greet your loved ones with enthusiasm and joy every time they walk in the door
  • Nap
  • Play
  • Eat only when you're hungry, but enjoy treats at every opportunity
  • Be unabashedly you
  • Enjoy the little things - a rest in the shade, a cool breeze on your belly, a car ride with the windows down
  • Be sensitive to the needs of others
  • Keep your loved ones close
  • Show affection
  • Spend rainy days lazing inside
  • Share your joy

Friday, June 6, 2014

Happy is slow, simple, peaceful.




6 AM and I begin to stir.  The gentle hum of my internal alarm clock wakes me from a solid 9 hour rest.  I blink my eyes open, stretch my limbs, and touch my feet to the floor.  Sunlight is just peeking through the trees as I unroll my yoga mat.  Listening to the birds chirp, I start my day by saluting the sun.  A gentle practice behind me, I make my way downstairs to the kitchen where a fresh pot of steamy hot coffee waits.  Mug in hand, I make my way to the table and begin my morning pages.  I sip and write emptying my mind and filling my soul while the rest of the house is still sleeping.  

8 AM and the others make their way to the kitchen.  Morning is slow and quiet.  We eat together then go our separate ways to get ready for the day ahead.  Sean heads out to work, and the girls meet at the table, books and laptops in hand, ready for their school day. 

10 AM and the girls work together on a project about European landmarks and legends, their most recent interest to study.  I finish up an essay on the ways simplicity has changed my life and move on to write a sequence for this evening’s yoga class.  My theme is living in the present moment. 

1 PM and lunch is done.  The girls and I head outside for a little vitamin D therapy and stroll around the neighborhood.  With animated conversation we cover a few miles letting a white-faced Lucky lead the way.  We make our way back to the house and play jump rope in the driveway, Lucky happily chewing a stick in the shade.  Back in the house with cool drinks in hand, we gather pillows, blankets, beanbag chairs and get cozy.  An afternoon of pleasure reading and creative writing follows. 

6 PM and Sean walks in the door from work.  As a family we sit at the table and enjoy a healthy, home cooked meal.  Dishes are done before Sean and the girls head back outside for an always continuing game of bad mitten.  I take a moment to listen to their friendly competition before heading downstairs to my studio for my evening class.  Guiding a small group of women through their asana practice, I share my love of yoga. 

9 PM and it’s time for bed.  The girls are showered and waiting in their jammies.  This is the time of night I cherish.  E wanting extra snuggles all cozied under covers and G waiting to read just one more book together before falling asleep, I tuck in my babies with a tired body and a full heart.  Back down the stairs one last time for a quiet moment with my partner in this journey, I share my gratitude for this pretty spectacular life that we created. 

Pretty amazing, right?  Yeah.  This is not my life…at least not yet, anyway.  This is my dream.  This is the life my family is working to create. 

My day currently happens a bit more like this…

6:39 AM Crap.  Four snoozes may have been too many.  I slowly maneuver my stiff, creaking body into a mostly upright position and hobble bleary-eyed to the stairs.  With a death grip on the banister to avoid falling and bouncing on my bottom all the way down (again), I make my way to the kitchen.  Sean is making the girls breakfast, while they fall back asleep, heads on the table.  Coffee.  I start a pot, spilling water all over the counter top as I pour.  While the pot brews I attempt to pack lunches uncaffeinated.  Ha.  My girls will later complain to me that “you gave me the wrong sandwich” and “she drinks grape juice, mom.  I don’t even like it.”  After breakfast there is a blur of uniform pants and too small polo shirts, struggles to find matching shoes, and a mad dash to scrounge up some cash for pretzel day…

You get the picture, right?  The rest of the day more often than not continues in this fashion.  Rush out the door for school, after school snacks on the run, basketball/dance/girl scouts/orchestra, dinner too late, shower, bed, repeat…

This is not working for my family anymore.  We have decided that busy is overrated.  We need slow.  We need simple.  We need peace.  This is why we are making a change.  We crave a slower life, and there is no reason that my dream can’t be our reality. 

We are looking for happy.  Happy, for us, is being together as a family, and creating happy is simple – choose the unconventional, un-busy, peaceful way of living.  A life with less really is more.  By removing things from our life (stuff from our home, activities from our schedule) we gain the opportunity for more in the way of slow, simple, and peaceful.  I look forward to the days to come as my little family makes the deliberate choices to live with intention and create a life full of meaning and purpose – a life that defines our own version of happy.    

Monday, June 2, 2014

Busy, that dirty, old four letter word.

 
The calendar is telling me its June already.  I'm not quite sure how this happened.  Cliche, I know, but time does fly.  I'm grateful that summer is almost here, and the school year is almost done.  Activites are winding down.  Orchestra, Girl Scouts, basketball, dance, fire school, yoga teacher training...  Yes.  I'm beginning to feel like I can finally catch my breath.

"Busy" is the word that comes to mind when looking back at the past months.  Busy is one of those dirty old four letter words in my mind, and I'm more than ready to strike it from my vocabulary.  Plans are in motion to make the months to come more managable/enjoyable/breathable/family-focused than the months past.  Crazy, hectic, busy schedules no more.

*Huge sigh of relief*

I'm proud to have made it through the crazy.  I'm thankful to be in this present calm moment.  I'm excited for the meaningful time to come.

While reading this morning there were words that jumped off the page and seemed to be written just for me.  As I move with intention through the second half of this year, I'll let these words help me along:  

 strength, drive, health, 
confidence, beauty, love, honesty, 
balance, acceptance, empowerment, quality, 
care, integrity, authenticity.

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Another Reminder to Make Moments Count.

 
Live life with no regrets.
Leave no hugs unsqueezed, no words unspoken.
Make eye contact.
Be all there.
Say I love you, and say it again just because you can.

Have ears that listen, 
even when there are three dozen other things you could be doing, 
even when you've heard the story before, 
even when you really just don't want to.  
It matters.

Live with open arms and an open heart.
Slow down.
Hold hands.
Take the time to really see the person beside you.

Don't spend all week waiting for the weekend, all year waiting for the summer.
No tomorrow is guaranteed.
Be happy now. 

Life is too short 
and too precious,
and it changes in the blink of an eye.

Love hard.
Live fully.
Be your best self now.
Make your moments count.

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Mother's Day, Today, and All the Tomorrows.


Being Momma to these two unique ladies is my biggest gift and greatest adventure.  It's the best, hardest, most rewarding thing I've ever done. 

My love for my girls is fierce, so big it hurts.  As a mother, my wish for my children is simple: I want for my girls to be happy, to be healthy, to live lives that they are proud of, and to love big.  My wish for Mother's Day is quite similar in its simplicity.  I'm not looking for perfection; I'm looking for peace.

I'm striving for empty schedules and full hearts.

I'm hoping for easy conversation rather than raised voices.

I'm craving a slow Sunday not quick tempers.  

A day with our eyes on each other more often than on a screen.

A day of happiness, health, and love for each other - on Mother's Day, today, and all the tomorrows. 






Thursday, May 1, 2014

Life: Slowed Down.

 
I want:
to not feel rushed
to not speed through the day
to take my time
to relish in the good moments
to not have a never-ending to-do list
to not feel a constant weight on my shoulders
to not feel like i'm constantly leaving something undone
to wake up slowly
to not live by a clock or a calendar
to play with my girls
to look my children in the eyes and truly hear them
to sit in the afternoon and have tea, cookies, and converstation
to be a mom who cares, who hears, who loves rather than a mom who cleans and rushes and complains
to enjoy my loved ones
to not feel like I'll never catch up
to give the people I love my time and attention
to not feel exhausted, overwhelmed
to hear my girls laugh and be right there laughing with them
to read books at bedtime, snuggled up in covers, not huff and agree to 'two pages, quickly'
to say yes
to play, laugh, sing, dance, read, enjoy, savor, love
to fill my moments, hours, days with the people who matter
to slow down.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

First Over Fear.


 A new blog.  The first post.  Gah!  So much pressure.  Fear has kept me from sharing for long enough.  So here goes... 

If there's one thing I've learned it's that simple is better.  With that said, I begin my blogging journey by sharing the words that I strive to live by:

It is my intention to do less,
to love more,
to be gentle with myself and those around me,
to live with gratitude, 
and to find a bit of adventure.